I'm frustrated by the way I just fall all over a guy. And I just get worse the less attention I get. I hate that I can be *that* girl. UGH!!!

So Kevin called me a bit ago. I answered the number I didn't recognize because I thought it might be an official call about school tomorrow. I got one this morning. But then it turned out to be him. We had a short conversation about how I thought I'd made it clear that I don't want him in my life.

He told me he just found out his mom has cancer. I told him that I'm sorry, I hope she gets better and that I know how hard it must be for him, but that I'm not the person he needs to talk to about this.

Now he's texting me and telling me that he has no friends and his family doesn't talk to him anymore and blah blah blah. I can't believe anyone would like about a parent having cancer, but I also wouldn't put it past him. What hasn't he lied about to me??

I'm once again very proud of myself for not arguing with him, not putting up with his shit, and sticking to not seeing him or being in contact with him. :)

I feel stronger every time I do it!!

I feel like I've been in a really good mood the last year and that it's got me nowhere. I'm so down right now. I don't know if it's cause things ended with Vince or if it's cause it's this time of the year or what. I'm really struggling right now.