Snow, snow, and yes, more snow!!

In my almost 29 years of life, I have never seen this much snow on the ground in this area! At least not that I can remember. It's crazy!! It's like a foot deep walking out to my car. I ventured out today for only the 2nd time in the past couple days. My dentist appointment was canceled but I met Mom Vanessa for lunch and did some shopping. I bought myself some boots so now I can walk somewhere if I have to and I LOVE them!! Mom gave me a Christmas ornament that said "daughter" on it which totally almost made me cry! She knew my Mom always gave us ornaments and thought I should have one. When I showed my ornaments to my kids at school I told them how special they were to me and how I wouldn't be getting any more. So this meant a LOT to me!

It's right up there with Shelley taking over the Advent calendar tradition and her and her sister are also going to get me a stocking every year. *sigh* I feel loved!!

On a down note, my Dad will NOT be making it home for Christmas. He's stuck in Arizona and said he's going to try to get a flight next Monday. BAH HUMBUG!!! That's what I say to that! But now that I've had a day or so to prepare for that possibility, I'm not as crabby. I'm trying to decide where I want to go since I've had so many invites.

I'm going to just hang with Shelley and her sister on Christmas Eve I think cause it's close and nothing fancy.

I'm thinking we'll do our family thing on New Year's Eve maybe, but my brother might be busy. I just called him and he's being as ass...SHOCKER! He said if we could do a late brunch and our dinner on New Years Day, that would work for him. Yeah, right...I'm not cooking 2 meals in one day. And then he hung up on me. He expects us to cater to him because he's the least flexible. And he never does anything besides show up. He won't do dishes and wouldn't be early enough to help cook. WTF!?! After he hung up I texted him "real mature" and then he wrote back "fuck off." Well happy holidays to you too! :P

HAPPY CHRISTMAS VACATION!!!

School has been canceled for tomorrow so my vacation started today!! No work for 18 days!!!!

I'm super excited!!!

Last night's CRAZY dream!!

So last night I dreamt I was at the Playboy Mansion for like a weekend! I had sex with Hef a few times (sometimes in front of Holly, Bridgett, and Kendra) and I have to say, he wasn't very good! He's OLD!! Then I got to do 2 photo shoots! One with Bridgett and some other girl and then one by myself. The mansion was so cool There were tons of people around and Holly helped me pick out my outfit (though I don't remember what I ended up in). I just know I felt really sexy!!

I don't know what it is that makes me have such weird, vivid dreams!

Snow Day

YAY!!!!!!!

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow...

Please, please, please Lord...let it snow tonight so I don't have to go to work in the morning. I am so tired and just need a day off. The kids are just so crazy and my head hurts.

PLEASE!!!!!!

bleh

I'm tired, crabby, PMSing, lonely, sad, down, etc...

And I've had a headache for 2 days now.

WTF?!?!?

Everything sucks big, fat monkey nuts!!!

Weekends suck big, fat, monkey nuts!!

I'm lonely and bored and bored and lonely!!!!!

2 Timothy 2:22

Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.


That was my Bible verse of the day on Saturday I think and it really spoke to me. This is something I struggle with daily...well, probably hourly. Part of me wants to go out and have naughty fun that I know I shouldn't have and I have a hard time ignoring that. I believe that this is the first step for me right now. I need to get a handle on living a righteous life for the Lord. Until I can do that, I can't fully appreciate all he has in store for me.

He showed me this yet again recently. I had met a guy and we fooled around a little and then I he stopped answering my texts. Today some crazy girl was texting me from his number (which I had deleted by then) and it was very reminiscent of all the Kevin/Samantha drama. I'm 28 years old for goodness sake, almost 29!! I don't need to be acting like I'm 19. I have learned in therapy that there is a part of me that CRAVES drama, but I'm trying to find good outlets for that. I know that God has a plan for me and I believe that plan includes a husband and children, but it's hard to remember that. It helps that Mom Vanessa reminds me of it, but I am not a patient person. To quote Veruca "I WANT IT NOW!" So one of my daily prayers is to have faith in the Lord and that he will provide for me when the time is right. And it's not right now. I don't know what'd I'd do with a husband and babies! Though I'm jealous of all my friends that are getting married and reproducing.

I started reading Multiple Blessings written by Jon & Kate Gosselin of Jon & Kate plus 8 fame. (LOVE THAT SHOW!!!) It's a real testament of faith. At the beginning of each chapter there is a Bible verse, usually about remaining faithful in Him and it's really good for me to be reading. Technically it's one of my Christmas presents, but shhh!!

My Thanksgiving was GREAT!! The 3 of us (me, Dad, brother) went to Ingeborg's (Mom's best friend) to be part of an 18 person meal. It was so much fun!! I sat at a great table and she put me far away from my Dad so he wouldn't make comments about how much I ate. That was super nice! I might get to babysit Ingeborg's grandkids sometime which is exciting!! There are 2 of the smartest and most imaginative kids I have ever met. It would be a privledge to hang out with them! Lots of laughs were had!

That day my Dad also gave me some cash and told me to do my own Christmas shopping this year. I just had to buy something for my brother, NOT buy something for him, and give him the receipts and any change. I laughed at him cause really...did he think I wouldn't spend it all? 2 days later I had! LOL I went to Target on Friday with Shelley and then came home and spent the rest on Amazon.com. I have about $20 left to buy my brother a pepper mill. Seriously, that's what he said he wanted and for some reason he thought I'd enjoy look for it! Um...not so much! LOL

Other highlights...Shelley and I went to my Dad's Saturday and I started my Christmas baking and she enjoyed the internet and just kept me company. It was lots of fun! I'm about 1/3 done with my baking but quite happy with my progress. I have to go over tomorrow night to clean up the rest of my mess because Dad will be home Wednesday morning.

Who wants Christmas cookies!?! That's all I'm really giving out as gifts because I'm poor! Of course I don't expect any either.

14 days of school left until Winter Break!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Something to think about...

Ooo, It's so crazy, she's like Baby, I'm like Swayze

First off, I just have to say that I had a TOTALLY AMAZING time at the New Kids on the Block concert last Saturday night!!! It was everything I could have wanted my first concert to be and though I'm 28, I felt like I was 13. They were so HOT and they had all aged really well!! I almost wish I'd been like Lori and spent the $350 to meet them, but there's no way I could have afforded that or really even justified it. I'm anxious to see her pictures though! I got these pictures from the friend of Stephanie's that was with us. I'm hoping to get more off her myspace soon so stay tuned!!!





A crazy thing happened at school last Friday. One of the kids was acting out like crazy and he decided to take a water bottle and squirt me with it. I was wet for the rest of the day pretty much...from head to toe too! It sucked monkey nuts!! All part of the job though, and I know it could have been worse...he could have hit me! I did get a nice apology letter this week.

I actually had a really busy weekend which for those that really know me, is odd. I was out of my place more than I was in it...WEIRD!! Friday night Kate and I went to Puyallup to hang with this guy Edwin I'd met and his friend Michael. We drank a lot (also not really like me), played a drinking game (my first!) and just had a good time. ;)

Saturday night was the concert...AWESOME!! And I saw Lori and Darlene which was nice.

Sunday night Michael (from Friday night) came over and we drank, watched a DVD, talked, laughed, and had a good time! I don't kiss and tell so...

Well, I think that's all I have to say for now. Today is an easy week at school, 1 full day, 2 half days, and then a 4 day weekend. So only 4 more hours of work this week!!! Of course I'll spend the rest of tomorrow at Dad's getting my contributions to Thanksgiving at Inge's ready, rolls, pie, and cute place cards.

I'm going to go play warcraft now! :)

a dream

So early this morning (around 5:30am) I woke up from a VERY strange dream. I had to tell somebody so I texted Shelley, knowing she wouldn't mind the early morning text. Here's exactly what I sent her (it was like 8 texts long!):

I'm sorry if this wakes you up but I had to tell somebody. I just had a really weird dream where my mom was alive again. Apparently 3 months after she died she came back to life. And she was fine and doctors couldn't explain it. And for the first year or so it was like walking on egg shells cause I felt like she would die again suddenly. But by then I wasn't so afraid and more just grateful for the time with her. And I was away at college and had been for like 3 months and finally remembered to check my mail (and it was like 3am or something) and I had dozens of letters and packages from her. I was trying to organize it all and I was crying and told my RA about the whole thing and it just felt so real. Then I woke and h ad to think if she was really dead or not. So now I don't want to go back to sleep for fear of forgetting it all. The feeling of her being alive was so real and actually kind of comforting, like she's out there watching over me.

I told you it was long! LOL It kind of felt like I'd had the dream before. At least the part about her coming back to life after being dead for 3 months. And nobody seemed to question how that happened even though she was CREMATED!! It was very weird, like if you asked that question the bubble would burst and she'd be dead again. I wonder what it means. I'm glad I texted Shelley because after I went back to sleep I had another odd dream about being in college and making out with some guy who I later found out was engaged, but he was leaving her for me. And I'd just met the guy and his parents were pissed at me. All that made it hard to remember the good mom dream. And the warm, fuzzy feeling I got from it was long gone. But I have the memory of it, which is nice.

I miss my mom!!!

"Well, I am home. I like it here on Sesame Street."

I just got back from lunch with my surrogate Mom Vanessa. It was nice as always. I really miss seeing her every week! But it was good to catch up and to get a mom hug!

I stopped at Target on my way home and spent WAY too much money! I almost bought season 3 of Family Guy cause it was on sale for $20, but decided not to at the last minute. I'll put it on my Christmas list. Though, I know Dad won't do any shopping so maybe I'll just buy it after Christmas.

I did however, find the movie you see to your right (Follow That Bird) which is a childhood favorite of mine. How can you NOT like a Sesame Street movie? It was on sale for $4.75 so I couldn't pass it up. Could you? LOL

I got it from Netflix once about 2 years ago and it's cheesy, but just so darn cute! I look forward to watching it.

Not a whole lot else to write about right now. I'd like to blog one of these days about religion and my journey with God and how I'm doing reading The Purpose Driven Life, but not today.

I'm going to get back to enjoying my 2 days off school!

from postsecret.com

This is one of my favorite websites...I visit it every week. This one caught my eye tonight. I think I will post others I have saved on my computer in the days to come.

Enjoy!

Poppin' my blog cherry!

So I've decided that I need a blog...someplace to write my (often random) thoughts. I love Facebook but unlike Myspace, it doesn't have a place for blogging or if it does, I've never found it. And I'm not going back the the drama of Myspace!!

I don't have anything to interesting to write tonight. I am totally bored out of my freaking mind!!! It's a 4 day weekend for me and I have lots of things I could be doing around my place, but am I? Duh, of course not! LOL I got out of bed briefly around 9am but then went back and dozed in and out of sleep until 1:30 I think when I decided to shower.

Then I spent my day waiting until 8pm when I went to go take Brad to the airport. I played a little World of Warcraft, read a little, messed around on the internet, etc. but nothing kept my interest too long.

And so I'm left to wonder...What will I do the next 3 days???