less than 17 days left...I can survive that, right?!?

So I'm updating at school/work today because I never seem to do it at home. And believe it or not this is site isn't blocked by the school district!

I had the most completely boring weekend ever and it was so beautiful out. I did nothing but sleep and sit in front of my computer and TV. How pathetic is that? How pathetic am I? (Rhetorical question, no need to answer it...) I don't know what my problem is! I think my depression is worsening. I've been pretty good for a long time now, only taking a really small dose of my anti-depressant, but lately I'm wondering if I need to be taking more. I have plenty of chores/projects I could be working on and there's nothing saying I can't go out and do something alone, but I just never have the energy or desire really. Sometimes I get super motivated late at night and I'm like "tomorrow I'm going to clean/do a project/walk/whatever" but in the morning the energy is just gone.

I had the worst trouble sleeping last night. My bed was just to soft and the room was too hot, even with a fan on. So since I sold my futon I tried to sleep on the floor of my living room. I think I got about 3 hours of sleep there but the sun and chirping birds woke me up around 4:30am when I moved to my bed until my alarm went off. So far I'm not too tired, just kinda crabby.

Last week Brad and I had it out over emails. He had said he'd come up with a lesson plan for my student for watching a movie about Anne Frank and when I asked him about it he said he hadn't (2 weeks later). I wrote him an email and just said that it was frustrating because he said he would and he didn't. Then he went off on me telling me I suck at my job basically and do everything wrong all day. I asked him how that was possible if I just had a review with the assistant principal and it was great. He said because he had stopped telling them everything I did wrong. He also did email me some lesson plan he just copied from somewhere and told me to look through it. I stated to him again that I'm not the teacher so he can just tell me what to do out of it. (He's always like "I'm the teacher, I can do no wrong, I know everything" when all he does is sit on his big, smelling butt all day stinking up the room!) We went back and forth a few more times and I was just like, stop deflecting on me. You said you'd do something (lesson plan) and didn't so I called you on it. Now you've given me one, it's over! He just kept harping on me and I'm just like DUDE! This isn't about me. Whatever...17 days left and then I NEVER have to see him again. He's moving somewhere...YAY!!! His car got keyed last week. Can't say he didn't deserve it. I feel so sorry for his girlfriend. I'm also very curious about her. They met online and she moved out here from Ohio (he paid for her to fly out) and she doesn't have a job or a car. She sits in the apartment all day cleaning or something and then serves him dinner while he plays final fantasy. Seriously, those are his words...she serves him dinner. I don't think she ever leaves the place without him. It's almost like an abusive relationship. Unless of course, she's that type of girl that can't decide what color underwear to put on without a man's opinion.

Anyway, I've survived this long, a couple more weeks won't kill me.

I'm excited about my summer job being a nanny. I need to go hang out with Stephanie and her kids to get a feel for them and how our days will go. I have so much fun stuff planned!

Backtracking a couple weeks...Jen's wedding was good. I felt very pretty in my dress!! Much prettier than I think I look in the pictures. I went and got my hair done and the lady made it look like there was a birds nest on my head! I'm not good at saying anything in those situations but was able to salvage it before going. And when I got home from the wedding and brushed some of the hairspray out my hair looked AWESOME!! All curly and pretty! My everyday styling is going okay though I think it looks like I have a mullet. I need to get a couple inches cut off the back I think. I'll wait awhile though, maybe to next paycheck.

Okay...gotta get to work and do a math lesson. Maybe I'll write more tonight, but maybe not.