Spring Break and 1st dates!

Spring Break is going well. I'm sad it's almost over! I haven't been nearly as productive as I had wanted to be, but really...did anybody think I would be? LOL I've done a little cleaning and there's still time to do more but we'll see.

I had lunch with mama Vanessa yesterday which was great. I love spending time with her! In some ways it makes me miss my Mom more, but mostly makes me miss her less. I couldn't ask for a better 2nd mother! :)

Tonight I'm going to hang out with Ian and Steve from work, that should be fun!

I've slept in a couple days which as been SOOOOOOOO nice! Today I woke up for good around 12:30 but didn't get out of bed for another hour. And here it is almost 3:30 and I'm still in my pajamas. Jealous?

So last night I had a first date with a guy named Mike. He's really nice and funny and best of all...he plays WARCRAFT!! Yeah, I'm a nerd, but that's ok. :) We went to the Olive Garden and then we played warcraft together for a bit when we both got home. He lives in Seattle and does computer stuff for a living. Really nice guy! I'm looking forward to seeing where it goes. We're going out this weekend too.

Okay, I think it might be time for me to shower. lol

Spring Break!!

OMG!!! I need this week off in the worst way! The kids are crazy and I just need time away from them. And it's sooooo nice to sleep in! My hope/goal is to not be too lazy all week and to actually get stuff done, mainly some SERIOUS Spring cleaning. My place is yucky. I typed out a list yesterday of everything I wanted to get done in each room. I know myself and so I'll be happy if I get 3 rooms done. Surprisingling I actually did a little today. I didn't get out of bed until 2pm when Kate called to invite me to Denny's and when I got home about 45 min ago I showered, shaved my legs, put on capris, potted some plants on my balcony, washed some dishes, AND took out the garbage. Not bad for a Sunday! The big thing that has to get done is un-caulking and re-caulking my tub cause it's a little moldy in one spot. EWWW!!! That actually takes some planning and work. I'm thinking Thursday for the cleaning and then Friday for the caulking (so it can be super dry) and then Saturday I can shower again. Maybe start Wednesday though. We'll see.

In other news...well, there isn't any really. I got a letter from my high school last week. I guess they're putting together a huge directory of all the classes up to 2006. I called so they'd have my info correct and then they wanted to sell me the book...$80 I think. I laughed at the guy. LOL Then he offered me something for only $40 and I laughed again. I told him I can get ahold of just about anybody via Facebook. At least all the people I want to talk to.

So that's all I guess I have to say right now. Oh yeah, one more thing. I'm going on a train trip to Portland with Darlene next month. Just overnight but I'm super excited!!

Peace out homies!!

crabby and anti-social

So I've been crabby lately and more anti-social than usual. I'm not sure why, but I have 2 theories. 1. The time of year. Today is my Mom's birthday, in about a month is when she died, and about a month after that is Mother's Day. So yeah, sucky time of year!
2. I'm trying to get myself off my anti-depressants (slowly of course) and went down to 5mg a couple weeks ago. This week I went back up to 10. We'll see if that makes a difference.

I guess it could also be a combination of the two. I just don't want to do anything that requires me to go out, besides work really. I'm perfectly content to stay home and play warcraft. Granted, I know that won't really help me with finding somebody which is what I was whining about last blog.

I'm supposed to go to a bridal shower today and even though I love Jen, Vanessa, and many of the people that will be there, I really don't want to make the effort to shower and drive and be cheerful. I need to call my therapist I think!

Jealousy/Anger

I am so freaking jealous of everybody who is married, having kids, or even seriously dating somebody. I am so tired at being alone!! I like being a couple. I'm a couple kind of girl. Yes, I like my alone time, but I love being with somebody. Talking, laughing, just hanging out, sharing about my day, etc. I try not to think about it, but it really consumes me and my thoughts. For as long as I can remember I have wanted to get married, have babies, and be a stay at home mom if possible. Not that I don't love my job, because I do (for the most part). But marriage has always been the goal for me and as I'm nearing 30! I just feel like it's just hanging over my head like a dark cloud. I feel like I'm NEVER going to meet somebody worth being with forever. Yeah, yeah, God has a plan...WHATEVER!!! I'm not down with that right now. I don't even want to hear it so save it! I just want to meet somebody and I'm so afraid I won't and I'll be living in this stupid condo ALONE FOREVER!!!

I think I'm a pretty good catch...smart, witty, funny, not all together unattractive, a decent cook, kind, caring, etc but I can't find a decent guy anywhere. At least not one I want to marry and have children with.

BEING SINGLE SUCKS BIG FAT MONKEY NUTS!!!!!!!!

annoying!

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Back by popular demand...

Okay, one person (Rebekah) doesn't really constitute "popular" demand, but I'm going with it! But I'm writing during down time in Warcraft (NERD!!!!) so it's going to take me awhile to write, but you'd never know that if I hadn't told you.

I'm watching Food Network Challenge - Disney Celebration Cakes. I love the challenges, especially when they're Disney based. After this episode is another Disney one that I've never seen. Very cool!

Watching this has confirmed that I want to go to Disneyland for my 30th birthday next year. I tried to look up prices, but it's too far in advance. I (tentatively) want to fly down on the 9th and come back on the 12th. Probably 3 days at the parks. Of course I don't want to go alone and as much as I love my Dad, I want to go with a friend or friends. So I'm putting this out there as a SAVE THE DATE, if you want to go. As Shelley has pointed out, saving needs to start NOW! I'm not sure how much it'll cost, but I'm anticipating $600/person. That's what it cost Shelley and I for everything (except food) a couple years ago. Granted, this would be a day longer I think. But it's a ballpark figure nonetheless. So, are you interested?? I know EVERYBODY will want to go, but realistically, is it something you would consider? I'd love to have you there!!!

Let's see...what else has been going on??? I haven't seen Marc in 2 weeks now. He's been busy, but a little weird too. Don't know where it's going, probably nowhere, but I'm not stressed about it which is nice.

I've been having some God issues lately. I just don't really care anymore. I mean I do, I believe and everything, and I know He has a plan for me, BUT I am completely 100% unmotivated to do anything about furthering my faith. I have all these resources (friends, books, etc.) but I can't seem to bring myself to do anything about it. It's like I'm in a desert, dying of thirst, and there's water right in front of me, but I can't bring myself to drink. I feel this way about other things too, chores, working out, and such. Things I need to do, I know I need to do them, but I just can't do them. What's up with that? Anybody got anything suggestions for that?

The whole daylight savings thing has been throwing me off. I never remember it bothering me before but this year (cause I'm old maybe? lol) I'm still feeling it a week later. It being light out later just throws me off...I think I have all this time left in the day, but I don't. GRRR!!! And it doesn't help that it's so freaking cold out...where's SPRING!?!

Work is going fine. Nothing exciting there. I started tutoring another kid, one that's been suspended for the rest of the year. So I tutor 5 days a week now. The extra money will be nice, especially for DISNEYLAND. I might pick up another suspended kid too, we'll see. He's a JERK so I don't mind if somebody else wants to tutor him.

Spring Break is coming up in 2 weeks. I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!! I don't have any exciting plans, but I have things I want to get done. I am going to walk every morning with Michelle. I also have a bunch of chores I want to do. I want to dust and vacuum EVERYWHERE, do some Spring cleaning, clean my deck, and re-caulk my tub. I thought about a road trip, but don't have the money for it.

Speaking of a road trip...I'm planning on one for Summer. If I work Summer School, I should be able to afford a trip, as long as gas prices don't go up too much. The ultimate plan would be up into Canada, through Calgary, Edmonton, Moose Jaw, down through North and South Dakota, swing by Colorado to see Alisha, swing through Nevada to see Katie, and then probably a stop in SF to see my Grandma and maybe Lisa. Then home. Sounds awesome doesn't it?! Want to join me?? I'm thinking the first 2 weeks of August maybe. Then I'll be home in time to get settled for next school year.

I just found a hole in my sock...I go through so many socks!!!

Okay, it's almost 8 and I haven't had dinner yet. I think I'm going to go do that now. And maybe take my bra off, it's bothering me. I hate having big boobs!

Like I said before...it's either feast of famine with my blogging!

Lots to write about today, let's see how much I get to before I get bored and want to play Warcraft. LOL

A couple weeks ago the weirdest thing happened to me in bed. No, not kinky weird, I was alone...get your mind out of the gutter! I sleep with a sheet, a blanket, and a comforter in the winter. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and the middle blanket has been pushed aside. I never know how that happens. Well, a couple weeks ago I woke up in the morning and somehow the sheet got under me in the middle of the night, but not all crumpled. It was perfectly flat. I don't know how I managed to do that in my sleep!

Isn't my life exciting! lol

I'm on vacation this week. I love all the vacations I get with my job. Yeah, it sucks to be poor most of the time, but the free time is great! And even though I won't work July or August, I'll still get paid. And I'll probably work summer school which is one month and that'll all be bonus money. More to put in the bank!

I went to California for 2 1/2 days to see my Grandma and uncles. I flew down on Monday morning and my friend Lisa (we've been friends for over 20 years, man I feel old!) picked me up and we hung out. We walked around Berkeley a little and just chilled and then she drove me to my uncles. My grandma is doing well which was good to see. She doesn't do much, but seems content in her rut. My uncles take AMAZING car of her! I slept most of Tuesday (hey! it's my vacation and I'll sleep if I want to!) which was nice. I played some Wii too (I SOOOOO want one!!) and that's about it. I came home yesterday.

Darlene took me to NW Trek a couple weeks ago. I brought Shelley along too. Dar brought her nieces and a friend along. We had such a BLAST even though it was a little cold. I'm really glad I went and it felt good to get out and walk and run around. I need to do that more often. Avery was supposed to go with me instead of Shelley, but he decided to just not show up and not call. Makes me sad, but I had fun anyway!

Darlene also took me to my first hockey game last Sunday. She had an extra ticket and it was at the new arena that's just down the street from me. It was fun!! It's a minor league team or something so the players are 16-23 or something like that. I had to keep reminding myself they weren't legal! LOL Good times though!

I need to find a church!! I never go anymore and have pretty much stopped going to my woman's group too. This is sad. :( I need to find a place where I fit it, but I can't do that if I don't look. I'm jealous of Kimberlea and her love of her new church. I did go to church with Rebekah and her husband a couple weeks ago down in Puyallup. It was nice, but WAY too big for me.

I got my tax refund last week...YAY!!! It feels nice to have a little extra cash and to not have to mail my bills at the last minute so my paycheck will get deposited before the checks get cashed. I put half of it in my savings account which felt good too!

I've been seeing several old friends lately. I saw my friend Teresa from high school a couple weeks ago. We went to lunch and had such a good time! We never hung out outside of school so that was a little weird but 10 years have gone by and we had quite a bit in common too. I can't wait to see her again!

Tomorrow I am seeing Melinda who I also haven't seen since high school. We didn't hang out much in high school, but did in junior high. We even too driver's ed together. She married with 2 1/2 kids now (ones in the womb) and I'm super excited to see her!

As I previously mentioned, I saw Lisa this week too! I did just see her over Christmas and a handful of other times since high school.

It's nice to reconnect with people. I was hoping to see a guy from high school in California, but he didn't get back to me. Oh well, HIS LOSS! :P

Work is work, nothing to report there really.

And last but not least, and your reward for reading all of this so far...details about the guy I'm dating, Marc. We started dating 4-6 weeks ago (I'm not sure) and it's going well. He's really sweet and nice. He's 26 and unlike most of the guys I've dated in the past few years, he has a job, a car, and doesn't live with his parents. Ooohhh...a triple threat! LMAO!!! We usually just hang out, go out to eat, and watch movies at my place. Nothing too exciting but we both seem to be enjoying ourselves. I like him a lot and am excited to see where it goes!

Well, that's all folks. I think I'm out of things to update on. I hope I answered any questions you had about my life.

Until next time...

P.S. I'm still totally in love with Lucy, my cat! I NEVER in a million years would've thought I'd get so attached to a pet, but I am! She met Grandpa last weekend (my Dad). Oh yeah, he took me out for lunch on Valentine's Day. :)