A little of this, that, and the other thing...

It's been so long...has anybody missed my sad, yet witty, blogs? lol Didn't think so! haha

It is currently 12:38pm when I am starting this and I think it's gonna take me all day to write. I've meant to write so many times over the past months, but I just never seem to get around to it. I wonder how much I'll get to today...

I am currently sick. Yuck!! It's a really nasty cold but it's on it's way out the door. I ended up only work a half day on Thursday and not on Friday so I've basically been sleeping for 3 days. Sleep always helps! I plan on returning to work tomorrow. I feel a lot better...not 100% but able to go out into the world. So far not even a lot of coughing today, but then again I've only been out of bed a little over an hour.

I'm thinking about going to grad school to become a teacher. I've said for the past couple years that I have no desire to be a teacher but I don't know now. I'm almost 30 and I feel like I have accomplished basically nothing. I like my job, it's easy but it pays nothing. I've hoped that I would get married and start a family so I wouldn't need a "career" but I feel like that may not happen now. Yes, I know 30 is still young and all that but at this point I just feel like I need something to fall back on I guess. Does that make any sense? Because maybe I never will get married. Maybe there's nobody out there for me. Maybe I'll just be alone forever. And if that's the case, I really need to make more money.

A lot of my friends are engaged, married, pregnant, or already have babies. Why them and not me? Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for them! But when's it MY turn? I would be such a great wife and mother so don't I deserve a shot at it? Why doesn't God give me that? I know I'm coming off as bitter and ungrateful, but oh well. Why do so many other people get what they want? I don't think they're just settling for somebody who comes along so why should I? Where are all the quality guys who are ready for commitment and family? Already taken, that's where. WTF?!?! I guess that's not all of them, but the guys I'm finding just don't do it for me. Or the ones that do, are LOSERS (i.e. Kevin). AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I'm so frustrated!

Time for a break....

Honestly, I don't begrudge you your happiness...I just want mine too.

*sigh*

So I'm totally crushing on my student's history teacher. He's perfect! Okay, he's probably not, but he definitely seems to have a LOT of great qualities. Why can't we get married and have lots of history loving babies? I'm kind of over the fun part of the crush though. I don't even think he knows I'm alive really. At least not in the "young, single, female" kind of way. He probably thinks I'm too young or just too fat for him. Sadness...

I'm sad I can't think of anything happy to write about. Oh wait, I LOVE MY CAT!! She's super cuddly these days and most of the time it's welcomed. I saw Lisa a couple weeks ago when she came to visit. That was good. And Disneyland is less than 3 months away. I should probably get to planning it.

It is now 4:47pm as I post this, exciting stuff...I know!